Bye bye autumn, here comes the winter

One year has been very fast, when I look back the autumn of last year.
I like this pic very much. Taken during the Hakone trip.

I want..

Checklist for what I wanna do when I go back Malaysia..

1. See my family
2. See my ah ma ah po and relatives..
3. See my friends..have party!!
4. Experience Malaysia..see how much shock I can get..after so long never been here.

n..I wanna lay around in my house..watch TV with my dad..eat the lak sa downstairs with my family..I wanna drive..I wanna enjoy Malaysia sea..wish I can go beach..n I wanna eat the food..cooked by my mum. I wanna talk to my siblings, I wanna meet my brothers' gfs..whom I never met b4..I wanna see my small brother with glass on his face..

I miss home..very soon..I will be there..

GE round table discussion and factory visiting

Yesterday went to GE event,
around 10 students who are going to enter the company next year were invited.

The system in Japan is you need to get a job one year before you graduate,
and the graduation is usually at the end of March.

I was the only gal for my department (research and development),
and I am the only foreigner among the 10 students.

I got my buddy, a 'half' (mixed Japanese and Europe) guy,
very friendly and talkative.

After yesterday, I was thinking, am I going to stay in Japan, for a short time, few years, or for the rest of my life.....

后悔

每个人一定会犯过错，
做的时候，你不会觉得有什么不妥。
过后想起来，就会觉得为什么当初自己会这么做。

我的弱点，就是觉得这个世界很美好，
每个人都是好人，
同情心旺盛，又很相信人。

经过这次的教训，
我学会了做事情要用大脑，
而且不是每个你相信的人，都可以完全相信。

睡觉

心情不好，或者是很烦的时候，
或者是有问题解决不到，
我就会睡觉。
睡醒的时候，
就会比较好。

昨天，我睡了很多。

如果寂寞是一种罪

最近，可能是朋友要搬家了，觉得还蛮寂寞的。
感觉上就算想要找人聊天，都可能找不到人，
这种感觉很可怕。

想看电影，也找不到人陪。
不是我没节目，太空闲。我也很忙。
也有人约我，如果硬要找人陪，不是没有，
可是，不是我要的那种，
很舒服的感觉。
要不断找话题，那种情况，
倒不如我回家一个人看drama好了。

如果，寂寞也是一种罪。

简单化的爱

进化论，随着时间的演进，
事情东西可能会复杂化，有些可能会简单化。

年轻的时候，我们会对爱有很多要求，
要求对方长的帅，身家，学历，幽默感，
等等，可能的话最好是白马王子。

到了三十岁的时候，有些人慢慢把要求降低，
有些还是很坚持。

对我来说，爱情，是一种陪伴。
伤心的时候，有人陪你一起挨，
开心的时候有人跟你一起分享，
无聊的时候，有人陪你一起消磨时间，
一起成长，一起变老。

有时候，越简单的东西，可能越难找到。

进度很慢的研究

想要写很久的研究计划，
还没有信心下笔。
八月conference paper截稿，
我要加油。

九月，想回家。
有没有时间回去，没信心，
所以机票每町。

很烦，
总之，
加油就对了。

mm.....quit or stay?

Every time someone asks me about my research, I will say:"mmmm...ma ma (means not so good in Japanese".

Maybe I should just quit my part time and concentrate in my studies. But I wouldn't have extra pocket money to spend. Feel so insecure. I am learning when I am doing part time also.arghhhh....stay or quit???

Fresh

I have never been exercised for a long time, my shoulders ache for the bad posture. But now I feel so fresh after swimming.
Around 5pm I swam in the Uni pool, enjoyed 10 minutes sauna and had a refreshing shower. I have to do it every week at least once.

Lately I start to meet new friends, connecting back old friends.
Working hard on my research,and doing my partime, as usual.

Nothing much new things happen, but I am happy for the time being.

Be frank

I was thinking about meaning of life.
A person is born, then grown up, become old, and die.

What is the meaning of life?

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I think, to be frank is very important. When we reach some points that we don't know how to proceed, or when we feel worried, the most important thing is to be ourselves.

If to be frank, we will gain a friend.
If we are hiding something from someone, maybe it is hardly to proceed in the relationship.
The feeling will never be good, by not telling the truth.

So, I chose to tell what was in my mind. Then I felt soothed, and relieved.

My friends always say that I am thinking too much.

OH MY GOD oh MY GOD!!! I got a job

受信日	2009/03/18 11:14
件名	【GE横河メディカルシステム株式会社】■ 最終選考 ■結果のお知らせ

顔　光珠様

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先日は、当社の『二次選考』にお越しいただき誠にありがとうございました。
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お送りしますので、少しお待ちください。


これから顔さんと一緒に働けることを、楽しみにしております。


Saw this email after when I was checking mail. It says that I passed the second interview of GE.
From now onwards i may rest from the restless job hunting.YEAY!!

心想事成

「祝你心想事成」是过年过节，或是有人生日的时候，的祝福语。

可是，如果真的人生能够像自己期待中的那样，一步一步那样走下去的话，
那样就是最完美的吗？

参加考试，就会希望及格，
找工作，就会被希望被录取，
我的情况比较幸运。至少情况还不会太坏。

可是，有时候，有些朋友就会告诉我他们得不偿所愿、生活很糟。
考试不及格，工作状况糟，我爱的人不爱我，家人不和谐。那，成功的KEYWORD是什么？

人生不长不短，而且走完就没了，在这短短的生命，我们又想留下什么？

我学到，有时候不是努力就可以的，我不能控制事情如何发生，可是我可以控制我自己如何去应对。傻人有傻福，我乐天乐天的，像我的阿嫲就说”天公保庇傻人”

One piece is missing..

After so many years.
My life seems perfect, I enter good uni, meet nice people, nice family..bla bla bla..

But why?
I still feel there is one piece of heart which is missing..
Hate this feeling.

The current me has no match to get a job in Japan

Attended so many job seminars and career fair.
I have reached to a conclusion, I am actually wasting my time.

What I can conclude for the failure is:
1. My graduation date is on Oct 2010, they are recruiting students who can enter the company April 2010, it means I need to wait for another year, April 2011 recruitment. (half-year-shaking-leg)

2. My Japanese level is still not up to the native standard. I am good but still not enough. Perhaps by the end of this year my Japanese will improve.

Next, what to do?
-Work hard for Japanese and to concentrate in research, who knows after one year I might want different thing, and my choices for applying for job might be widen.

Half year shaking leg life,
1. great chance to go travel before work start,
2. might beg my current partime company to give me job for half year.

Alternative Choice?
go back malaysia and look for a job in SG/Msia..

Yeah!~~~Ganbare

细心照顾

It was just the Mickey Mouse in front.

Present it to my friend before I come to Japan.
Two years passed..so fast..and the Mickey is no longer just a Mickey..

The plant has changed..so do I..

Surprise and Worries

Surprise:
The moment I entered my part time job office, the JLPT results was there. I passed!!
294/400, not too good though but at least I didn't fail.

Second surprise, another Malaysian friend of mine 'come out', I am not too surprise since the friends from the gang come out one by one.

Worries:
What if I get the same news from the guy I like now!!!!!???????????? OMG....better I don't put too much expectation.

It is like riding on a roller coaster

Too many guesses, too many doubts, I am weakened.
Sometimes, I am on cloud nine , sometimes I am confused, sometimes I am down..

Everytime I feel I am a fool to wait in the long queue for the roller coaster, the feeling get even stronger when I am already on it, where I just can bear with all the ups and downs, no way to get down halfway before it stops. And I dunnoe when it will...

Yeah..It is like riding on a roller coaster.

Today is my Chinese Lunar Calendar Birthday

Chinese New Year is coming yet I don't feel anything until I called my mum.
My mum told me today is my Chinese Lunar calendar birthday.

If I were in Malaysia, the whole family will go out to have dinner somewhere.
I think my mum must be missing me very much as I miss her so much too.

Recently I am still busy with job hunting( seems like usaha sia-sia), partime and research.
But there appears a glimpse of something special.Human are greedy creatures, when you have a bit of something, you will want more from it.I don't want myself to become like that, when you start to hope for something, more disappointments will follow.

Wish myself happy birthday.

拔了智慧齿

拔了智慧齿，智慧会不会被拔掉？
刚刚问诺尔‘“在自然界，任何东西的存在都有它的理由，那智慧牙呢？长出来是为了被拔掉吗？”

突然萌生想念完博士，
回马来西亚当教授，
开一间自己的研究室，
回馈社会，造就英才，改变马拉西亚的高等教育水平的伟大抱负。

马来西亚在研究界，根本就还不能上国际舞台。
我想改变。

可是，当我有本事回马来西亚后，我会变成很老很老，
女人老了就贬值了，
为了国家，成家立业是不是也要放弃？

当教授，好像也不能赚钱，我的家人怎么办？

可是， 为了当Dr Gan,加油！